Dear blog,
a comment by kingone jus now triggered alot of thinking frm me... so wat really is a blog? are blogs supposed to be something in which you write your actions and feelings down?..am i suppossed to lament that i'm having the chills and my shoulder's acting up again today?...or is it ur own virtual refuge whr u have the freedom to write anything you want..sad, happy, exciting..whatever you think you write?..or are blogs a place for u to say words you wish to say to somebody, in which u know you'll nvr be able to say face to face?

ppl sometimes ask me, y u always sound so sad?..honestly?..i cant give u an answer..some ppl may whisper behind my back that i am jus acting sad..am i?..maybe i am...mayb i am acting sad because i realised when i was 3 that my family is goin to break apart..mayb i'm acting sad because i realised 2 years ago at 4 A.M that i will nv have the family like those in the tv programmes..mayb i am acting sad because i realised how it feels to be utterly rejected so many times after u thought that mayb this time it might work out..mayb i am acting sad because i realised that nothing is forever, forever is a lie, all we have is between hello and goodbye..

do i sound like a phoney to you now?..do u still want me as ur friend?..i dun blame u if u don't..it only serves to remind me that nothing is forever..for those who still wanna by my friend..i'm sorry i can't give u an honest answer..cuz i dun even know myself...and for those who managed to hurt me..dun ask me y do i always sound so sad.."my reasons for being heartbroken is beyond ur comprehension, because you never did realise that you were the one who broke my heart...."dun say that i dun understand...its only because i understand too much..that's why it hurts so much...

so much anger..so much angst..i'm sorry blog for venting all on you...



when he holds you close, when he pulls you near, when he says the words you've been needing to hear. I wish i was him, with these words of mine, to say to you till the end of time..