The calm before the storm

there's so much to say but yet at the same time there's nothing left to say. an obvious contradiction i know. but isnt life itself one huge contradiction?

i am weary of the weight of time.

the process of time has wore away the walls that you can find comfort in. expectations has took away the cool detachment that you so craved for and cherished. they say you dont make enough decisons but when you do make them. they are greeted with scorn and disinterest. people have led you to believe but you dscover everything was just an elaborate lie. a scam to make you sink deeper than you once were.

you thought, you assumed, you even dared to believe and therefore you will suffer.

and now here you are, in the abyss of nothingness. the silence mocking, the darkness complete and the damage total. and you know it's nobody's fault but your own.

i dont feel like going on anymore

滴下的眼泪已停不住了