When was the last time you said "I Love You"?

From a recent focus group, this is what my friends have to say about me.

"whnever i'm online, i'm invisible. whn he wans to do survey, i am visible. aft e survey, i am invisible again."

guilty. but i'm not proud of it.

i realise that work has become my enforced number one priority. There are moments when i stop and take stock and realise that this shouldnt be the way. but i'm still stuck in this shit cycle that has no beginning nor end.

Talking about workload. apparently according to some people who talks in a unbearable fake PR way that makes my skin craw,l says that actually our workload is not enough. and some areas should have more work and involvement.

My reaction
--> EAT SHIT AND DIE!

i hate veiled barbs and barely conceled innuendoes. i prefer straight talking criticisms that hit you straight in the face. at least you can see the blow coming and take it like a man. if you're unhappy, FFF just say you're unhappy.

*breathes
sorry, i digress.

moving on..

I have missed gatherings and birthday moments all in the name of work. so much so that 'work' has become an easy excuse to dish out. I dont mean i was lying just that whenever something comes up i reject it outright because i believe there are many things to be done or maybe simply because i dont wish to go.

so to all the focus groups, you guys have been great respondents to my surveys but thats only one area you guys do well. there are many more. trust me

remember just because someone doesnt love you the way you want, doesnt mean they dont love you with all they've got.

it's been a long time since i have the TGIF feeling.
2 more weeks. 2 more goddamned weeks.