and i understand

i guess it's time for me to return
to the place where it all begun

to the beginning
where reality and fantasy
weaved into one
a place where my past
was nothing but a dream

watching at your half-hearted attempt on humour
the laughter that never quite reached your eyes
you feel so faraway
that i cant reach for you anymore

and i understand

the subtle way
you no longer reach for my hand
and use the shampoo
that i have come to love

and i understand

how you would
look away
when i tried to
wade through the endless abyss
within your eyes

and i understand

why at this moment
you are holding my hand
so tightly it hurts

telling me words
that we once
promised
never to say to
each other

and i understand

the reason why
i am listening close
to every single word
you utter
as if they were your last
because
i know

it will be your last.

and i understand, i understand.


as the first light dawns, it signals the end
to everything.