suddenly i realised the shadow has lifted. no longer am i haunted by the ghost of the past. for the first time since a long time i am at peace with myself and the decision i had made. there were no "what ifs" and "maybes" this time around. there were no useless speculations, only sincere blessings and genuine smiles with no tears hidden behind.

looking back, i realised that i will most probably make the same choices if i ever had the chance to do it all over again. the choices made me wat i am today. the choices made me grow up (i hope), more mature (i hope), less naive (definitely) and certainly less emotional in a sense, i've become quite cynical i guess.

Regrets? sure i do have regrets. the words i never really got to say, the things i never did, the "what ifs" and 'maybes" and so much more. but no, i dun think i ever regretted. because at the end of the day, i believe that these things do happen for a reason, because at the end of the day i believe my choices were worth the consequences.

such magnanimous words, i know that i am not this ever-forgiving sage that dis post is making me out to be. i do bear grudges. Maybe it's because for the 1st time in a very long time that i am at peace with myself. Maybe it's because for the 1st time since a very long time i can look at the mirror and say that i had let go.

"If I would have known my heart would break, I would have loved you anyway."