its funny how the whole world will change in perception as the years run down on you. everywhere people look at you expectantly for results, for affirmation, for whatever. but there are points in time when you need someone to turn to for answers, fo reassurance, for concern too. every corner you turn, every step you take, people are watching you, hounding you. waiting for a misstep so that they can pounce on you. you have a feeling that you are riding on this huge red tide and cant get off. all you can do is keep moving, keep fending for yourself. but you are only human, you will get tired too. you cant possibly carry on behind this facade of pretensions forever. your spirit will be broken one day. there are moments in life where you need a little reassurance, a few doses of concern and maybe a wee bit of love too.