it is moments like this, the realm between the fast approaching daylight and the lingering night, that your senses seem to heightened. it is times like this, when you are slowly slipping into oblivion, that you suddenly feel lost and devoid of directions. you never do like reading signals because you always believe you will get it wrong. you'd rather refuse to guess than get it wrong, because the consequences will spiral beyond control. you are shivering, with no arms for you to seek solace. there's no choice but to go on, against the freezing cold and loneliness with this unexplainable feeling that is festering in your heart. how you wish that you could just slip into oblivion and stay in the darkness forever. how you wish there's a place where you could rest your tired soul upon. maybe one day you'll stop having emotions that should never happen in the first place.

but come on.