Dear blog,
first things first...is my hair long?...i cant believe that a lecturer actually told me to go cut my hair!..asshole:" do you know that your hair is very long?" me:" i only knowwhen you say so."..what the hell is this man?..am i back to secondary school?..that damn lecturer..goes by the surname of Lim..i know u buay song our class come late..i know u buay song i keep showing u tht face..but ii guess u deserved it for showing our class ur own damn attitude when we din even do anything wrong ?..i can easily find more than 5 males whose hair are longer than mine..oh and dun threaten me that u will book me..if u wanna book den " JUST BRING IT!"..i dun take threats well..

i feel so buay song, if u wanna find trouble den say so..no need to use ur lecturer status and threaten me...u dun have a case to argue..if u not happy den BOOK me...bar me from the exam..lets see what an uproar that will cause..the exam actually went quite well..but i guess there are some ppl that are borned pervertic and they like to spoil ur day..and LIM was the perfect example..period..

so finally again...is my hair long?

"people once said that time can heal all wounds...well..they lied.."

Dear blog,
i have arrived at a conclusion for determining what a blog is...well it is MY blog and i am goin to write anything i damn well please...and nobody's gonna stop me...my sorries again to Nas abt the last post..really ddn know it'd be so similar..well...sorry...copyright fees are on me..:p

Saw this interesting thingy some months ago..forgot where though..maybe it was from another person's blog, well if that person happens to see this..inform me and i will take it down immediately..thx..


don't judge me, if you don't know me.
some people just pretend they know me so damn well, when they don't.
some people just pretend they are so damn close to me, when they are not.
some people are just so misconstrued to think they are so damn close to me and they know me so damn well to even start judging me.

but i am telling you, get real, and listen.
stop farking judge me and telling me what to do when you dun even know me well..

what u think blog?..i feel its so true..especially whn tht guy i got my surname from start making comments abt me when he sld jus look at the mirror...anyway, regarding the last post thx to those who expressed concern..i'm fine ya...jus one of those nights...u all sld know..so dun worry..all is fine..

"When I go away please listen, for the wind will bring you my words of goodbye."

HANGOVERS
Dear blog,
hangovers are great bitches..well that's wat i always say when i get one.....never try them if you can..they will make sure you suffer frm excruciating headache and queasy stomach..but have to say dis Remy MArtin XO hangovers are especially bitchy..damn..dun try if u can..

tht's all..till the next hangover..

Dear blog,
a comment by kingone jus now triggered alot of thinking frm me... so wat really is a blog? are blogs supposed to be something in which you write your actions and feelings down?..am i suppossed to lament that i'm having the chills and my shoulder's acting up again today?...or is it ur own virtual refuge whr u have the freedom to write anything you want..sad, happy, exciting..whatever you think you write?..or are blogs a place for u to say words you wish to say to somebody, in which u know you'll nvr be able to say face to face?

ppl sometimes ask me, y u always sound so sad?..honestly?..i cant give u an answer..some ppl may whisper behind my back that i am jus acting sad..am i?..maybe i am...mayb i am acting sad because i realised when i was 3 that my family is goin to break apart..mayb i'm acting sad because i realised 2 years ago at 4 A.M that i will nv have the family like those in the tv programmes..mayb i am acting sad because i realised how it feels to be utterly rejected so many times after u thought that mayb this time it might work out..mayb i am acting sad because i realised that nothing is forever, forever is a lie, all we have is between hello and goodbye..

do i sound like a phoney to you now?..do u still want me as ur friend?..i dun blame u if u don't..it only serves to remind me that nothing is forever..for those who still wanna by my friend..i'm sorry i can't give u an honest answer..cuz i dun even know myself...and for those who managed to hurt me..dun ask me y do i always sound so sad.."my reasons for being heartbroken is beyond ur comprehension, because you never did realise that you were the one who broke my heart...."dun say that i dun understand...its only because i understand too much..that's why it hurts so much...

so much anger..so much angst..i'm sorry blog for venting all on you...



when he holds you close, when he pulls you near, when he says the words you've been needing to hear. I wish i was him, with these words of mine, to say to you till the end of time..

If i should ever leave before you,
remember that i still live on.
Maybe not within you but certainly around you
so you must be strong,
i look forward to the day we can soar together again.
Don't ask me if i have you in my heart,
don't even ask if my feelings are true to the heart,
'cuz my heart is already with you.
So whenever you need me,
just whisper my name in your heart,
cuz that's where i'll be..

"when you have no light to guide you and no one to walk beside you..i will come to you..when the night is dark and stormy and you need to reach out for me..i will come to you...but..do you want me to?"

Dear blog,

i was introduced to this program that is known as the buaya network today by suki, so as kingone has so aptly put it, i joined the dark side...:p..its called friendster... sound familiar to you?..ok..firstly to set records straight..i am not a buaya..and i will never ever be one..i feel uncomfortably buaya just now when i go look at suki's fwens to find the pokz to add...and even when i found to pokz i was still wondering..am i so buaya till muz go find ppl to add?..they might not even wan to add you...no offence to pokz and fwens...you all should know i usually think on the bad side...sorry....so anyway added them...god i still feel buaya..can someone cure me of this?..god...

..ok...thats enough for now..might be be back later..

Invisible Man
You can hardly wait to tell all your friends
How his kisses taste sweet like wine
And how he always makes your heart skip a beat
Every time he walks by
And if you're feeling down he'll pick you up
he'll hold you close when you're making love
he's everything you've been dreaming of
Oh baby..

I wish you'd look at me that way
your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
telling me more than any words could say
but you don't even know i'm alive
baby,to you all i am
is the INVISBLE MAN..

You probably spend hours on the phone talking 'bout nothing at all
it doesn't matter what the conversation
just as long as he calls
lost in a love so real and so sincere
you wipe away each other's tears
your face lights up whenever he appears...

I see you all the time baby
The way you look at him
I wish it was me sweetheart
Boy i wish it was me
But i guess it'll never be...

I wish you look at me that way
you're beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
telling me more than any words could say
but you don't even know that i'm alive
baby to you all i am
is the INVISBLE MAN..

"If you were a teardrop in my eye, then for the fear of losing you, i swear i'll never cry.."

took a trip down the memory lane,
amidst the downpour of heavy rain,
discovered that there is still so much pain,
in this very place where my heart was slain.


i guess words can never put my feelings in plain,
and you wouldn't care even if my heartbeat fades to a faint.
maybe that is why i feel so drained.

So, please forgive me tonight,
for wishng that for once you could hold me tight,
when i know everything is already in black and white.


"if i was invisible..i'll watch over you forever..if hearts were unbreakable..maybe i could tell you what i feel for you..if i was invisible..wait..i already am"

Dear blog,

i attended a sucky wedding dinner just now. and to say that it SUCKED should be the understatement of the year. Imagine dis, you dun see your relative for almost 10 years then suddenly a wedding invitation is extended to you. you attend because you are obliged to but then you realise no one gives u a bloody damn there. you are left entirely on your own. this is the 1st time i attended a wedding dinner without knowing any one there. makes you wonder the true motive of the invitation. are we invited because we are from the same family? or are we there just to make up the numbers?

What do you think blog?...still think marriage sucks though..alot..


There are no impossible dreams.
There are no invisible seams.
Each night when the day is through,
I don't ask much, I just want you.

Have you ever been in love and she didn't feel the same way?
And you stayed up at night because you cried the whole day?
Have you ever cared for someone in ways you couldn't name?
But she just loved someone else and she didn't feel the same?
Did you ever walk with her just to have her by your side?
But when she turns to leave, it just tears you up inside.
Did you ever wish that you could share her life every minute?
Even though you knew deep inside that you couldn never be in it?
Did you ever find that sometimes you couldn't even eat?
And when night came along you just cry yourself to sleep?
Did you ever try to forget her but you just couldn't let go?
And every time you talked to her you wanted to let her know?
If you've ever been in love before you know what I'm saying is true
I know it's the truth because it happened when I fell in love with you.


Dear Blog, what do you think?..is love an emotion created by god just to have fun at our expense?..as for me..the existence of LOVE is very much in question..

Dear blog,

firstly, i wanna specially extend my thanks to the guys at ANGEL**** for deactivating my account 3 freaking times and causing u to lose your background and stuff and ME to create you all over again! thanks again huh! it was an enlightening experience..._!_..

Just finished that crap pamphlet for CC but then no colour printer. Y cant she just accept the soft copy? she thiink we all rich kids got alot 0f $$ to buy colour printer?...what did u say Blog?..print in sch?..u think wat? i got alot of time to do this type of things issit? do for her she sld be happy liao..stil want what colour printed..wan go do herslf la!..luckily Nas was chatting wif me to provide some impetus for me to do it..else dunno if i can finish tat pamphlet without using all the swear words i know over and over again..:p..

guess tonight have to OT..AGAIN..sucks..but oh well thats life ya? OC presentation is due tml and thus, Kingone has to stay up to do it cuz he is the PPT king...as he kindly requested me to stay up wif him..well i'm duty bound to say yes..cuz i'm in tat group..:p..just hope the ppt's goin to blow everyone away..right King?

Oh ya..and dad came back frm indonesia today..wonder wat hanky-panky he did there..cant be bothered though..din even bat him an eyelid whn he came home...i'm sorry...i'm sorry that u are my dad..

..that's all blog..thx for listening..

Dear blog,
while i'm sitting here and staring at you, i have to say that it was not a pleasure trying to set u up. i cant believe that i spent so much time on u when u are not even my fwen yet. i guess u nvr did appreciate the pains i went thru to make u look presentable. and to think that u are only an acquaintance..well at least for now..

Well, der's not much to say anyway. had the stupid DTP test, all the things i studied like nothing come out..:p.. Sai Heng apologised today about tat IVP project thingy. I have to admit i was damned pissed off tat time..here i was doing overtime thru E bloody night with Ben and he was..well..forget it la..as April said "Peace man". So, peace it is..let bygones be bygones..jus hope tat next time if dis happens, he could give us his reasons earlier to avoid this type of cock-up which sucks..period.

tried sleeping in the evening..cant..dunno y..and my idiotic shoulder is acting up again. i feel so old and sick...guess maybe the overtimes are catching up with me..haiz..

well, thanx for listening Blog..maybe u cld be my fwen after all...

iN lieu of the recent happenings that has happened to my incredibly stressful and sleep depraved life, i feel that the time has arrived for me to search for an outlet for me to scream injustice at someone, anyone or everyone. The reasons for me on starting on this time consuming and confusing stuff is:

1. I need a place to diss ppl who have pissed me with their unworthy existence.
2. I need a place to complain, complain and complain.
3. I need a place to tell ppl that life is nvr a bed of roses
4, i just feel like doing this and there's nothing u can do abt that.

thx for bearing with the crap...its gonna get worse..