我知道伤心不能改变什么 那么 让我诚实一点
诚实 难免有不能控制的宣泄 只要关上了门 不必理谁
一个人坐在空荡包厢里面 手机 让它休息一夜
难 像切歌切掉回忆的画面 眼泪不能不能流过十二点
生日快乐 我对自己说 蜡烛点了 寂寞亮了
生日快乐 泪也融了 我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你 带一点恨 还要时间 才能平衡
热恋伤痕 幻灭重生 祝我生日快乐
Monday, March 28, 2005
Saturday, March 26, 2005
A treatise of longing
I want many things.
i want to travel the world. see things i never seen and learn languages i never knew exsited. i want to learn how to sail. to feel the wind against my face. to remind myself that the sunsets are still beautiful. i want to skydive. to leave my mark among the clouds. to feel the thrill of flying. to cheat death. i want to have superpowers. to be wolverine. to experience the feeling of invincibility. to discover what it's like to kill so dispassionately. to be so detached and yet so passionate. ruthless but with the ability to love.
i hate it when people think that the world revolves around them and that time has to stand still when they have problems. i hate it when they believe that their problems are so earth-shattering that they have to spend forever brooding and sulking when real people are dying across continents and around the world. i hate people who dont know how to shut up. when they say things without thinking. when their words are designed to hurt. when they air their opinions openly about issues that are none of their goddamned business. your opinions are yours to keep, but for fuck's sake shut up if nobody's asking for it.
*when i need you, you're only almost here.
I want many things.
i want to travel the world. see things i never seen and learn languages i never knew exsited. i want to learn how to sail. to feel the wind against my face. to remind myself that the sunsets are still beautiful. i want to skydive. to leave my mark among the clouds. to feel the thrill of flying. to cheat death. i want to have superpowers. to be wolverine. to experience the feeling of invincibility. to discover what it's like to kill so dispassionately. to be so detached and yet so passionate. ruthless but with the ability to love.
i hate it when people think that the world revolves around them and that time has to stand still when they have problems. i hate it when they believe that their problems are so earth-shattering that they have to spend forever brooding and sulking when real people are dying across continents and around the world. i hate people who dont know how to shut up. when they say things without thinking. when their words are designed to hurt. when they air their opinions openly about issues that are none of their goddamned business. your opinions are yours to keep, but for fuck's sake shut up if nobody's asking for it.
*when i need you, you're only almost here.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
A drop of blood in a bowl of milk
recently i got to experience two extreme ends of human nature.
i finished reading The Timetraveller's Wife and the story was nothing short of heart-wrenching. with a love so strong that transcends time (literally), i wouldnt blame you if you started to believe in the world again.
it's really a great read and is different from the normal thrashy romance thingys. one precaution though, if you have tears, then prepare to shed them. but you would feel that the world is a better place after reading.
but alas, i have to go watch Closer.
yeap, so sigh with me.
the word love and everything good that was associated to it was destroyed by the movie. love was bandied around like a hot potato. one minute i love you, the next minute i love her but in the end i guess i love me most.
everybody fucks everybody and everybody wants to know if how many times the other body came. there is no choice but to deduce that love lasts only as long as the next great fuck.
it was one big love making story.
so at the end of the day, cynicism won hands down in the face of idealism.
maybe thats why The Timetraveller's Wife is a "great read" while Closer is a movie that "depicts real life".
*i feel so tired that i bought stapler without buying staplets.
i feel so tired that i missed my stop while i was standing on the train
i feel so tired that i almost threw my clothes in the bin instead of the washing machine.
i feel so fucking tired.
recently i got to experience two extreme ends of human nature.
i finished reading The Timetraveller's Wife and the story was nothing short of heart-wrenching. with a love so strong that transcends time (literally), i wouldnt blame you if you started to believe in the world again.
it's really a great read and is different from the normal thrashy romance thingys. one precaution though, if you have tears, then prepare to shed them. but you would feel that the world is a better place after reading.
but alas, i have to go watch Closer.
yeap, so sigh with me.
the word love and everything good that was associated to it was destroyed by the movie. love was bandied around like a hot potato. one minute i love you, the next minute i love her but in the end i guess i love me most.
everybody fucks everybody and everybody wants to know if how many times the other body came. there is no choice but to deduce that love lasts only as long as the next great fuck.
it was one big love making story.
so at the end of the day, cynicism won hands down in the face of idealism.
maybe thats why The Timetraveller's Wife is a "great read" while Closer is a movie that "depicts real life".
*i feel so tired that i bought stapler without buying staplets.
i feel so tired that i missed my stop while i was standing on the train
i feel so tired that i almost threw my clothes in the bin instead of the washing machine.
i feel so fucking tired.