When was the last time you said "I Love You"?
From a recent focus group, this is what my friends have to say about me.
"whnever i'm online, i'm invisible. whn he wans to do survey, i am visible. aft e survey, i am invisible again."
guilty. but i'm not proud of it.
i realise that work has become my enforced number one priority. There are moments when i stop and take stock and realise that this shouldnt be the way. but i'm still stuck in this shit cycle that has no beginning nor end.
Talking about workload. apparently according to some people who talks in a unbearable fake PR way that makes my skin craw,l says that actually our workload is not enough. and some areas should have more work and involvement.
My reaction
--> EAT SHIT AND DIE!
i hate veiled barbs and barely conceled innuendoes. i prefer straight talking criticisms that hit you straight in the face. at least you can see the blow coming and take it like a man. if you're unhappy, FFF just say you're unhappy.
*breathes
sorry, i digress.
moving on..
I have missed gatherings and birthday moments all in the name of work. so much so that 'work' has become an easy excuse to dish out. I dont mean i was lying just that whenever something comes up i reject it outright because i believe there are many things to be done or maybe simply because i dont wish to go.
so to all the focus groups, you guys have been great respondents to my surveys but thats only one area you guys do well. there are many more. trust me
remember just because someone doesnt love you the way you want, doesnt mean they dont love you with all they've got.
it's been a long time since i have the TGIF feeling.
2 more weeks. 2 more goddamned weeks.
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Friday, August 26, 2005
Monday, August 22, 2005
Window to the past
a bus ride down memory lane
the place between pleasure and pain
outside
the scenes
past and present
assault my senses
wistfulness played
across my lips
as a familiar tune
sounded within the
pockets of my mind
so many times
so many ways
and all the moments
that passed us by
yet all we could do is
heave a sigh
and be thankful
that everything we will keep
till the day we die.
it's something unpredictable and yet in the end it's right.
i hope you have the time of your life.
*oh i hate clubbing. still
a bus ride down memory lane
the place between pleasure and pain
outside
the scenes
past and present
assault my senses
wistfulness played
across my lips
as a familiar tune
sounded within the
pockets of my mind
so many times
so many ways
and all the moments
that passed us by
yet all we could do is
heave a sigh
and be thankful
that everything we will keep
till the day we die.
it's something unpredictable and yet in the end it's right.
i hope you have the time of your life.
*oh i hate clubbing. still
Thursday, August 18, 2005
They aren't that indispensable you know.
I came across this article not long ago and it's quite interesting.
5 types of women that you should never ever date.
1. The Chronic Cheater
Never date a chronic cheater. Even though attraction has alot to do with whether a woman cheats on you or not (a woman will be less likely to cheat on you if she's CRAZY about you), some women are more prone to cheating. It's just in their DNA/character and they can't help it. The moment you turn your back on her and a hot stud (or even a not-so-hot guy) walks by, she's going to want him. and guess who cleans up the mess?
2. The Golddigger
You should never ever buy stuff just to impress women and gain their approval. buy them because you want to. on your terms. if she dares to ask you to buy her expensive things, it's time to lay the smack down and throw her out.
3. The Baggage Girl
Baggage women are even worse than golddiggers. Golddiggers take your money, which you could always earn back. But baggage girls drain you of your energy until you end up feeling depressed like her.
Relationships are already hard enough to sustain with a "healthy" woman, so dating a woman with a lot of emotional baggage is like preparing your own funeral. It's like carrying a rigged time bomb around your pocket, not knowing when it will explode.
4. The Self-Proclaimed Princess
The self-proclaimed princess is a spoiled little brat who is too used to getting everything and anything she wants in life. Rich parents, good looks, plenty of suitors to serenade her. She breaks a nail and she wants you to drive her to the nail salon immediately. Cooking and doing house chores are fine as long as you're the one doing it. She just wants to sit there and wait for you to massage her feet.
You can date a princess if she is flexible and willing to fit herself into your world. But if she doesn't, then it's time to kick her into the air, back to the top of the castle tower where she belongs.
5. The Chronic Bitch
Pessimistic women are poisonous and a definite no no. They argue about EVERYTHING and once married, their favorite hobby is making their men feel guilty. Yeah thats you, Bronco.
side note from me: remember a beautiful face does not mean a wondeful personality. we often fall for the trap that just because a woman is hot/beautiful/gorgeous we think that they have great characters and personalities.
"But she's so beautiful! how would i know she is.."
ever said that? that's when the shit hits the fan and you discover how terribly wrong the assumption was. just because a woman is beautiful does not mean people have to kiss the chair she sat on.
I came across this article not long ago and it's quite interesting.
5 types of women that you should never ever date.
1. The Chronic Cheater
Never date a chronic cheater. Even though attraction has alot to do with whether a woman cheats on you or not (a woman will be less likely to cheat on you if she's CRAZY about you), some women are more prone to cheating. It's just in their DNA/character and they can't help it. The moment you turn your back on her and a hot stud (or even a not-so-hot guy) walks by, she's going to want him. and guess who cleans up the mess?
2. The Golddigger
You should never ever buy stuff just to impress women and gain their approval. buy them because you want to. on your terms. if she dares to ask you to buy her expensive things, it's time to lay the smack down and throw her out.
3. The Baggage Girl
Baggage women are even worse than golddiggers. Golddiggers take your money, which you could always earn back. But baggage girls drain you of your energy until you end up feeling depressed like her.
Relationships are already hard enough to sustain with a "healthy" woman, so dating a woman with a lot of emotional baggage is like preparing your own funeral. It's like carrying a rigged time bomb around your pocket, not knowing when it will explode.
4. The Self-Proclaimed Princess
The self-proclaimed princess is a spoiled little brat who is too used to getting everything and anything she wants in life. Rich parents, good looks, plenty of suitors to serenade her. She breaks a nail and she wants you to drive her to the nail salon immediately. Cooking and doing house chores are fine as long as you're the one doing it. She just wants to sit there and wait for you to massage her feet.
You can date a princess if she is flexible and willing to fit herself into your world. But if she doesn't, then it's time to kick her into the air, back to the top of the castle tower where she belongs.
5. The Chronic Bitch
Pessimistic women are poisonous and a definite no no. They argue about EVERYTHING and once married, their favorite hobby is making their men feel guilty. Yeah thats you, Bronco.
side note from me: remember a beautiful face does not mean a wondeful personality. we often fall for the trap that just because a woman is hot/beautiful/gorgeous we think that they have great characters and personalities.
"But she's so beautiful! how would i know she is.."
ever said that? that's when the shit hits the fan and you discover how terribly wrong the assumption was. just because a woman is beautiful does not mean people have to kiss the chair she sat on.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
sometimes i blog hop. i come across different themes from people yabbering about breakups to those voyueristic weirdos who like to tell everybody what they do from the moment they wake up to the minute they hit the sack. seriously i dont know why they do that. there they are screaming and whining for privacy from their parents and then they decide that the rest of the world can share their life. makes you scratch your head. but hey, who says the world is logical anyway?
if you're with me. i need a silent nod here.
sorry, i digress.
well, it's fine by me. ultimately its your website and you're entitled to your say. even those which literally stinks of narcissism, self-love, megalomania.. i think a nicer way to put it is misplaced confidence. i think i suffer from that too.
what the heck, you didnt have to know that.
but what really piss me off is when narcissism disintegrates into self-delusion and one starts thinking he is better than everyone. and actually proclaiming it to the world.
gimme a break.
maybe you're animated. hell, a monkey animates all day and is damned well more animated.
maybe you can make a woman laugh and all the others before you cant. hell, a dog can make women laugh.
if you agree. read on. if you dont. read on anyway because it's too late to turn back.
oh i can hear the indignance coming.
"well it's my blog and if you dont like it you can dont read."
thats absolute bullshit.
if you so like praising yourself and putting down others. keep a fucking diary. what i cant see. i dont care.
man, do i sound bitter or what?
on an entirely different note. i recently have a new dream. i want to become a notorious male escort where the big bucks will come rolling in. and i can shove the projects up where the sun dont shine.
and to quote from a blog i read -> "cheebye, look what has education taught us."
AMEN
if you're with me. i need a silent nod here.
sorry, i digress.
well, it's fine by me. ultimately its your website and you're entitled to your say. even those which literally stinks of narcissism, self-love, megalomania.. i think a nicer way to put it is misplaced confidence. i think i suffer from that too.
what the heck, you didnt have to know that.
but what really piss me off is when narcissism disintegrates into self-delusion and one starts thinking he is better than everyone. and actually proclaiming it to the world.
gimme a break.
maybe you're animated. hell, a monkey animates all day and is damned well more animated.
maybe you can make a woman laugh and all the others before you cant. hell, a dog can make women laugh.
if you agree. read on. if you dont. read on anyway because it's too late to turn back.
oh i can hear the indignance coming.
"well it's my blog and if you dont like it you can dont read."
thats absolute bullshit.
if you so like praising yourself and putting down others. keep a fucking diary. what i cant see. i dont care.
man, do i sound bitter or what?
on an entirely different note. i recently have a new dream. i want to become a notorious male escort where the big bucks will come rolling in. and i can shove the projects up where the sun dont shine.
and to quote from a blog i read -> "cheebye, look what has education taught us."
AMEN